ENTRY: Absorbing the Big Book, before you even start it

The Big Book is a very useful tool; in fact, it's probably more useful than a new package of guitar strings would be for me…  (Yeah really, 'tis that useful.)  I would never encourage any person in recovery to live and breathe by the Big Book, just like I don’t really think a Christian person should encourage another Christian … Continue reading ENTRY: Absorbing the Big Book, before you even start it

ENTRY: Bereavement… Refusing to ‘move on’

Death is very sad; it is tragic and can even prove totally unnerving.  Life will always continue to move and progress forward; the clocks won’t stop ticking.  There is nothing that can be done about the progression of time.  When we lose a loved one though, it’s like everything in our lives skids to an … Continue reading ENTRY: Bereavement… Refusing to ‘move on’

POETRY: Valium Obsession

Swallowing little blue pills by the milligram, taking just enough so you don’t give a damn, it stops the anger and it brings the calm, life is what it is and I am what I am.  No standing in line for my prescription, rudimentary methods to fulfil my addiction, from India to Pakistan or straight … Continue reading POETRY: Valium Obsession

POETRY: Just Beneath the Surface

"Just Beneath the Surface" by Dean B. [circa 2000] Just beneath the surface of her pleasant, winning smile, Pompous and indignant, it’s been there quite a while, Comforting, reliable, it keeps her in the dark, At least a million reasons and subtle quirks remark: “Sure it makes a lot of sense!” she’ll deal with it … Continue reading POETRY: Just Beneath the Surface

ENTRY: Reflections… 4 years ago

I used to maintain another online journal a few years ago, but it was a bit more personal.  I spoke of all the changes and enlightenment I'd been experiencing as a wide-eyed newcomer to the recovery world.  Scanning through old entries, I ended up towards the beginning of the blog, when I was only at … Continue reading ENTRY: Reflections… 4 years ago

ENTRY: The Five R’s, an old standby

I do think it is appropriate, nowadays, to include posts in the blog about normal, practical, everyday life.  It’s important to include a sense of morality in these entries, since I do try to live my life by certain morals and standards that I’ve set for myself with the help of God and my wonderful and … Continue reading ENTRY: The Five R’s, an old standby