POETRY: Just Beneath the Surface

"Just Beneath the Surface" by Dean B. [circa 2000] Just beneath the surface of her pleasant, winning smile, Pompous and indignant, it’s been there quite a while, Comforting, reliable, it keeps her in the dark, At least a million reasons and subtle quirks remark: “Sure it makes a lot of sense!” she’ll deal with it … Continue reading POETRY: Just Beneath the Surface

From1-2-1: Even in Dark & Lonely Times, Amanda Still has Recovery

I have been sober for 3 months now. I have learned a great deal about myself and why I started using in the first place.  Many of my problems revolve around my relationship with my family.  It's not good.  Let's just say that it's not the typical relationship that you would have with your family.  … Continue reading From1-2-1: Even in Dark & Lonely Times, Amanda Still has Recovery

ENTRY: Meditating… Wheels within Wheels (at First)

For the longest time--in fact it was up until recently when I actually followed through with my eleventh step, but honestly, I never knew how to meditate.  Well, that was how I used to phrase it.  I thought that there was this certain, strict procedure behind meditating.  I always thought it had something to do … Continue reading ENTRY: Meditating… Wheels within Wheels (at First)

FROM 1 ADDICT 2 ANOTHER: Amanda Talks Trust

[This entry features some strong content; please exercise the appropriate discretion.] "The other day in group, my counselor asked us what that one thing was that we'd actually valued the most before our addiction, and that we ended up not caring about anymore during our addiction. Mine was trust. Before my addiction, I really valued … Continue reading FROM 1 ADDICT 2 ANOTHER: Amanda Talks Trust