POETRY: Valium Obsession

Swallowing little blue pills by the milligram, taking just enough so you don’t give a damn, it stops the anger and it brings the calm, life is what it is and I am what I am.  No standing in line for my prescription, rudimentary methods to fulfil my addiction, from India to Pakistan or straight … Continue reading POETRY: Valium Obsession

MEDIA: Muse du Jour

I was feeling inspired today.  You know, that's one thing I truly love about being sober.  It feels so good and fulfilling to experience real emotions again.  And it could be any emotion.  I remember having a somewhat curious bout of constant crying spells about a month into sobriety.  I know this has happened to … Continue reading MEDIA: Muse du Jour

FROM 1 ADDICT 2 ANOTHER: Amanda Talks Trust

[This entry features some strong content; please exercise the appropriate discretion.] "The other day in group, my counselor asked us what that one thing was that we'd actually valued the most before our addiction, and that we ended up not caring about anymore during our addiction. Mine was trust. Before my addiction, I really valued … Continue reading FROM 1 ADDICT 2 ANOTHER: Amanda Talks Trust

ENTRY: Praying for Energy

I’ve been writing new prayers daily the last couple days.  I try to practice humility, too, so I’m not one to pat myself on the back but I am grateful that God has guided me that way, regarding my inspiration and the time that I reserve for writing and/or my visual art.  It has been … Continue reading ENTRY: Praying for Energy

ENTRY: Self-Control

I would say there is comfort mentally in knowing that self-control truly is my biggest struggle.  I also think it has been the biggest catalyst for all of my major life problems, such as addiction and apprehension.  I wrote a prayer speaking of just this… God, I need you I need you completely I beg … Continue reading ENTRY: Self-Control

ENTRY: New Take on Life via Poetry

Some things that I just love about Emily Dickinson’s poetry is that she tends to shine light on very common, simple words from the English language that we use practically every single day. I love her use of capital letters in random spots for random words just as well, since it draws a great deal … Continue reading ENTRY: New Take on Life via Poetry