MEDIA: Little Boy Lost, II

The little boy is crying, crying inside the man! The little boy is crying, he can only do what he can! The little boy is crying, there’s so much shit in this life! The little boy is crying, not for himself, but for his wife! The little boy is crying, while lying in bed at … Continue reading MEDIA: Little Boy Lost, II

POETRY: Valium Obsession

Swallowing little blue pills by the milligram, taking just enough so you don’t give a damn, it stops the anger and it brings the calm, life is what it is and I am what I am.  No standing in line for my prescription, rudimentary methods to fulfil my addiction, from India to Pakistan or straight … Continue reading POETRY: Valium Obsession

POETRY: Just Beneath the Surface

"Just Beneath the Surface" by Dean B. [circa 2000] Just beneath the surface of her pleasant, winning smile, Pompous and indignant, it’s been there quite a while, Comforting, reliable, it keeps her in the dark, At least a million reasons and subtle quirks remark: “Sure it makes a lot of sense!” she’ll deal with it … Continue reading POETRY: Just Beneath the Surface

ENTRY/POEM: Saying ‘Goodbye’ to a True Mentor

Last weekend, I lost a true friend from my work.  As some readers might know, I do work in the recovery field, and it is a job that I truly cherish.  However, I probably wouldn't love the job today if it weren't for all the wonderful people that helped get me to where I am … Continue reading ENTRY/POEM: Saying ‘Goodbye’ to a True Mentor

ENTRY: Praying the Way You Want to

I love crafting my own prayers.  It's a special, sacred way of communicating with Higher Power, or God in my case.  Of course, the prayers must be written down, so that I can keep revisiting them.  They then serve like journal entries, as well.  So, these homemade devotions make for very detailed and colorful time … Continue reading ENTRY: Praying the Way You Want to

ENTRY: Oh, Lovely Energy

Life is good.  I am living it one day at a time, in a sober manner.  There are some very stressful situations, but hey, that’s life.  Stress is totally, 100% typical for everybody.  That's clear.  Also, none of us is perfect.  I am a perfectionist, but I have to always remember that I will never … Continue reading ENTRY: Oh, Lovely Energy

MEDIA: Under the Bridge

Just about everyone knows "Under the Bridge" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers.  A lot of people know, too, that the song does in fact pertain to drug addiction.  Many alt-rock/indie-rock bands from the early '90s were experiencing major woes when it came to the various members engaging in illicit drug use.  Obviously, partying is … Continue reading MEDIA: Under the Bridge

MEDIA: Muse du Jour

I was feeling inspired today.  You know, that's one thing I truly love about being sober.  It feels so good and fulfilling to experience real emotions again.  And it could be any emotion.  I remember having a somewhat curious bout of constant crying spells about a month into sobriety.  I know this has happened to … Continue reading MEDIA: Muse du Jour

ART: The Apprehensive Addict

I've been to many invigorating AA meetings.  And I get it; some meetings are most certainly not as fulfilling as others.  Also, it's plausible that some addicts or alcoholics might have had a negative experience related to attending a meeting, and it might be why he or she doesn't continue to go.  This is part … Continue reading ART: The Apprehensive Addict

FROM 1 ADDICT 2 ANOTHER: Amanda Talks Trust

[This entry features some strong content; please exercise the appropriate discretion.] "The other day in group, my counselor asked us what that one thing was that we'd actually valued the most before our addiction, and that we ended up not caring about anymore during our addiction. Mine was trust. Before my addiction, I really valued … Continue reading FROM 1 ADDICT 2 ANOTHER: Amanda Talks Trust